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[notworthallthis]

PSL with beyourzoomer
Word association: Guilt
2. I need advice on ways to politely say "fuck you on your way to hell."

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[beyourzoomer]

[It's the most she's talked about Billy with anyone, really. She tended to bottle things up and keep quiet. Maybe it really is easier to talk to someone she doesn't know very well. The soft Jesus Christ, though, makes her tear up for some stupid reason. She holds her breath for a moment, blinking a few times to try and hold them back instead of letting them fall.]

Yeah. Still sure you want to be part of the family?

[There's no bite to her tone, just...flatness. Because she won't blame him if he decides that nope, this life is not for him. She's not sure this life is for her most of the time anymore.]

[notworthallthis]

[Bucky can tell she's trying not to cry, but he pretends not to notice, eyes focused on the road in front of him.

When she speaks, he does glance back over at her, manages a small smile.]

Every family has its problems, some just have more or bigger ones than others.

[beyourzoomer]

[She appreciates that he doesn't call her out on the tears. But she raises her eyebrows when he says that.]

Well. We definitely weren't the Brady Bunch, that's for sure.

[notworthallthis]

I don't think anyone's family is like that. [He snorts softly.]

[beyourzoomer]

Oh, I don't know. I have a friend whose family that's pretty close. Only two kids though, not six.

[notworthallthis]

Yeah? [He smirks slightly. At least she’s talking again.] Well, they’re one in a million, then, maybe.

[beyourzoomer]

Yeah, maybe. [She considers for a long moment, then glances at him sideways.]

What was it like? For you, I mean. Growing up.

[notworthallthis]

I was the oldest of four, and we moved a lot cause our Dad was in the Army.

[Packing everything up to head to another base on the whim of the government was… not the best way to live, but Bucky had borderline idolized his dad back then. He wanted to be just like him.]

He died in an accident during a training exercise… mom didn’t last long after losing him, either. My siblings went with family, and Sarah Rogers kinda unofficially adopted me.