Living on a razor's edge, danced with demons, tasted death

[ The only answer Steve gives to that is swinging one leg off the bed, and kicking the shield just under it with his shield, resulting in a muffled, metallic ringing noise. He will eventually get killed 'in the line of duty', or be forced to stop just because he has run completely out of the... mental and emotional resilience to keep doing it the way it needs to be done.

Until then, he's going to take the time he can carve out with Bucky, take it for Bucky both in the literal sense of getting Bucky some time away and by giving it to himself.

There is a definite kind of balance between them and always has been. Bucky pulling Steve out of shit, Steve pulling Bucky out of shit. Steve willing to try for himself because that also helps Bucky not have to do so much heavy lifting on his behalf.

Meanwhile he snorts a little in amusement and is forced to admit:]

You probably shouldn't. Less of a hair trigger doesn't mean I don't have a temper. Push the wrong buttons and there's gonna be a problem -- and probably more property damage than I can pay for.